I know - 2 posts in one day?! Amazing!!! I stumbled across this and it's now going to be posted all over my house. Love it!
God grant me the serenity
To make good food choices;
Courage to turn away from baked goods;
And energy to exercise daily.
Living healthy one day at a time;
Enjoying my journey;
Accepting that the road to wellness can be hard;
Taking the tools of better eating out into the world
As I should, free from the bad habits of the past;
Trusting that making wise decisions today will pay off tomorrow;
If I surrender to my will
I will not beat myself up in this life and the next
But I will remember that this is a life long journey;
A journey that is well worth every pound lost.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
A Day Late - weigh in
One thing I have managed to stay consistent in is my weekly Monday weigh in's (the only thing, actually). I forgot to post it yesterday though. I was down a half of a pound. Do you think the phrase "slow and steady wins the race" is actually true? I sure hope so.
I needed some new jeans for my upcoming vacation and so I went to the Rack on my lunch break. I am happy to report that I bought 2 pair of jeans - both a SIZE SMALLER than what I used to wear!!! WOO HOO!!!
I know this mentality doesn't make sense but I have been beating myself up day and night about not being 100% committed lately. I so desire to get back to giving it 100% but I can't seem to find the willpower. When I do find it, I am great all day or all week, then lose it that evening or by the weekend. Makes me feel like a loser - and not the good kind either. It's especially bad because all of a sudden Pete's weight loss is really showing. EVERYONE is commenting on it and raving over him. I am raving, too, because I am truly proud of him and I know he's healthier (and hotter, too). I just get sad because no one is saying those things about me and I feel like they are saying in their heads (he's lost all this weight - why hasn't his fat wife lost hers). Sad, huh. And embarassing! The worst part is, I only have myself to blame - because let's be honest here - I have NOT been giving it 100%. Had I been giving it 100%, I know people would be raving about me, too. You'd think that having this feeling would motivate me - but it actually only makes me want to wallow in self pity while choking down some Mickey D's. UGH UGH UGH!
I did just manage to find some new blogs that really speak to me. I've found other women in Massachussets, Melbourne, and the UK - all of which are struggling just like me. It's nice to know I am not alone.
Hopefully you will be seeing more of me here and less of me in person.... that is my goal......
I needed some new jeans for my upcoming vacation and so I went to the Rack on my lunch break. I am happy to report that I bought 2 pair of jeans - both a SIZE SMALLER than what I used to wear!!! WOO HOO!!!
I know this mentality doesn't make sense but I have been beating myself up day and night about not being 100% committed lately. I so desire to get back to giving it 100% but I can't seem to find the willpower. When I do find it, I am great all day or all week, then lose it that evening or by the weekend. Makes me feel like a loser - and not the good kind either. It's especially bad because all of a sudden Pete's weight loss is really showing. EVERYONE is commenting on it and raving over him. I am raving, too, because I am truly proud of him and I know he's healthier (and hotter, too). I just get sad because no one is saying those things about me and I feel like they are saying in their heads (he's lost all this weight - why hasn't his fat wife lost hers). Sad, huh. And embarassing! The worst part is, I only have myself to blame - because let's be honest here - I have NOT been giving it 100%. Had I been giving it 100%, I know people would be raving about me, too. You'd think that having this feeling would motivate me - but it actually only makes me want to wallow in self pity while choking down some Mickey D's. UGH UGH UGH!
I did just manage to find some new blogs that really speak to me. I've found other women in Massachussets, Melbourne, and the UK - all of which are struggling just like me. It's nice to know I am not alone.
Hopefully you will be seeing more of me here and less of me in person.... that is my goal......
Monday, March 22, 2010
Monday Weigh In
My blog posts may have dwindled but we've still been weighing in EVERY Monday. This morning - I am down 2 pounds!!!! I have finally taken off the 5 pounds I put on when I went to Vegas. This is a LONG, HARD journey - but I'm taking it 1 day at a time. I WILL get there. I WILL.
I am not sure of Pete's weigh in today but yesterday we had to go buy him some new work pants. We bought 34X30's which is a huge deal because at one time he was actually in 42X30's. He's come a long way and I am so proud. There are times I wish my job was as physical as his so my pounds would fly off, too. Sitting at a desk all day doesn't do anyone any good. But, I do have that trusty gym membership and will be continuing to put it to use. I love how I am actually able to flex and see my bicep muscles now ;)
I am not sure of Pete's weigh in today but yesterday we had to go buy him some new work pants. We bought 34X30's which is a huge deal because at one time he was actually in 42X30's. He's come a long way and I am so proud. There are times I wish my job was as physical as his so my pounds would fly off, too. Sitting at a desk all day doesn't do anyone any good. But, I do have that trusty gym membership and will be continuing to put it to use. I love how I am actually able to flex and see my bicep muscles now ;)
Monday, March 8, 2010
Update
I wanted to title this post "long time no talk" - but that definitely wouldn't work seeing that I've done that a few times already. Many of you have come to me asking why I haven't been posting. To be quite honest, I haven't had the mental capacity lately and my heart isn't all there for it. BUT - if you ask me, that's just an excuse. So, here I sit telling you (again) that I am going to try harder this week to make this blog more of a priority. I am also going to try to not let things I can't control get to me and take my focus away.
Speaking of focus, I got this book from the library yesterday called "shrink yourself". I happened upon it by chance. It is written by a famous psychologist and he talks about the devastating effects of emotional eating and how to break those bonds. I'll let you know how it turns out.
Last but not least - the weekly update. I am up one pound (just confirmation of my struggles) and Pete is down 2.5 pounds. I think his total lost since January is somewhere around 25 to 30 pounds which makes me so proud. Not to mention - he's getting hotter by the day! He has been my rock and what has kept me somewhat on track. With all the chaos and stress at work all I've wanted to do is come home and eat my way to relaxation and happiness. Thank God he hasn't let that happen. I'm so blessed to have him as my partner in getting healthy.
I just want to thank all of the regular readers of this blog who stay with me even when my posts lag. You stopping me in the hall or calling or emailing to ask why I am not making posts on a regular basis really does help hold me accountable and keep me on track. I kind of feel that old saying "it takes a village to raise a child" is playing out here. Only this time it is "it takes a village to help this girl reach her goals". And a lot of time & patience! I am truly appreciative of everyone's help and support.
Speaking of focus, I got this book from the library yesterday called "shrink yourself". I happened upon it by chance. It is written by a famous psychologist and he talks about the devastating effects of emotional eating and how to break those bonds. I'll let you know how it turns out.
Last but not least - the weekly update. I am up one pound (just confirmation of my struggles) and Pete is down 2.5 pounds. I think his total lost since January is somewhere around 25 to 30 pounds which makes me so proud. Not to mention - he's getting hotter by the day! He has been my rock and what has kept me somewhat on track. With all the chaos and stress at work all I've wanted to do is come home and eat my way to relaxation and happiness. Thank God he hasn't let that happen. I'm so blessed to have him as my partner in getting healthy.
I just want to thank all of the regular readers of this blog who stay with me even when my posts lag. You stopping me in the hall or calling or emailing to ask why I am not making posts on a regular basis really does help hold me accountable and keep me on track. I kind of feel that old saying "it takes a village to raise a child" is playing out here. Only this time it is "it takes a village to help this girl reach her goals". And a lot of time & patience! I am truly appreciative of everyone's help and support.
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