Long time no talk, AGAIN! I want to say I've missed blogging, but it isn't entirely true. I think that is because I've been struggling lately with the Eating Clean lifestyle. Come to think of it, I do miss blogging - but what I REALLY miss is having stuff to blog about. When I first started in January - I felt like every post came easy and flew onto the screen. I couldn't wait to make my next post. Now, blogging feels a lot harder. I am not kidding myself - I know it is because of my current situation and mindset. I do like the fact that many people have mentioned to me that they've been looking for blog updates and are disappointed to see that I have not been posting. That's a nice feeling in one way - yet I feel like I am letting the blog readers down, too.
There are many things contributing to this "off the bandwagon" ordeal that I am going through. The major issue is stress. There are a few areas of my life - and my personal home life is NOT one - where I feel immense amounts of stress and depression. I just feel like most days I have been in a pressure cooker all day long. Escaping the madness has been tough and I find myself turning to my old habits for comfort. Not a good thing. Pete's been doing a great job at not letting me give in at home (no pizza, no fast food, no dairy queen) - Thank Goodness.
I have also been struggling because we have not been planning ahead as well. I bought all of the same healthy items at the store but noticed a few days out of the week I "forgot" to pack them. We haven't been grilling up large amounts of chicken either, which was once my main easy staple.
My best friend is coming to visit in July. I have a goal to be 15 - 20 pounds lighter by then. I REALLY REALLY want to get there. Some days I just feel helpless in actually obtaining it. I was so depressed about it a few days ago that I told Pete maybe I should find an eater's 12 step program. He just looked at me like I was insane. For now, I am going to skim through the two books that got me excited in the first place in hopes that my spirit and enthusiasm will be renewed. I am also going to pack my lunches religiously next week.
One positive item of note: I still lost 2 pounds last week. Pete's lost a few more - his pants are falling off of him now. We're headed to our Group Weightlifting class tonight - I love it! Just gotta get my eating under control again.
Maybe I should take a note from these guys:
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