A Day Late - weigh in

One thing I have managed to stay consistent in is my weekly Monday weigh in's (the only thing, actually). I forgot to post it yesterday though. I was down a half of a pound. Do you think the phrase "slow and steady wins the race" is actually true? I sure hope so.

I needed some new jeans for my upcoming vacation and so I went to the Rack on my lunch break. I am happy to report that I bought 2 pair of jeans - both a SIZE SMALLER than what I used to wear!!! WOO HOO!!!

I know this mentality doesn't make sense but I have been beating myself up day and night about not being 100% committed lately. I so desire to get back to giving it 100% but I can't seem to find the willpower. When I do find it, I am great all day or all week, then lose it that evening or by the weekend. Makes me feel like a loser - and not the good kind either. It's especially bad because all of a sudden Pete's weight loss is really showing. EVERYONE is commenting on it and raving over him. I am raving, too, because I am truly proud of him and I know he's healthier (and hotter, too). I just get sad because no one is saying those things about me and I feel like they are saying in their heads (he's lost all this weight - why hasn't his fat wife lost hers). Sad, huh. And embarassing! The worst part is, I only have myself to blame - because let's be honest here - I have NOT been giving it 100%. Had I been giving it 100%, I know people would be raving about me, too. You'd think that having this feeling would motivate me - but it actually only makes me want to wallow in self pity while choking down some Mickey D's. UGH UGH UGH!

I did just manage to find some new blogs that really speak to me. I've found other women in Massachussets, Melbourne, and the UK - all of which are struggling just like me. It's nice to know I am not alone.

Hopefully you will be seeing more of me here and less of me in person.... that is my goal......