Struggling

AGGGHHH! I am so mad at myself right now. I packed my lunch full of healthy foods today and I ate a healthy breakfast and a healthy snack – both on schedule. I’ve been drinking all my water. Lunch time rolls around and we have a big multi-departmental meeting and they’ve ordered pizza. Oh no! Well, I thought about taking my lunch in there but who wants to be the schmuck eating their own little meal out of a plastic container when everyone else is eating the lunch that was graciously provided by the company. I thought about waiting to eat after the meeting – but I was starving and the smell overcame me. Guess who just ate not one, but TWO slices of pizza. They were thin crust with pepperoni and sausage. UGH!!!

I am not happy about this and I knew I’d feel this way (although it WAS incredibly yummy going down). Pete’s gonna be pissed and the last thing I want to do is be responsible for him getting weak too, I feel like little by little, my willpower is slipping and I am injecting bad meals into my diet more frequently (Olive Garden – now pizza). I need to get a handle on this. I also need to get my butt to the gym tonight and work off some of the extra calories. Man, letting yourself down (and your readers) is not a good feeling. Better luck with better choices beginning now……. I think I will also re-read parts of “Never Say Diet Again” to give myself some encouragement.

p.s. I did have one victory in all this - I wanted so badly to keep this little "secret" to myself but instead - I let you all know right away. Afterall, the whole purpose of this blog is to keep it "real"......